BOMBS!

so life goes on as planned, nothing special, nothing really to say...

slept at theas grandma's last night and will probably do so tonight as well which means that i only have to get up for work about 15 minutes before as to earlier an hour before.... feels like college all over again, eating a slice of bread on the go :) swam in the fjord third day in a row, one of theas friends scared me though saying that there is some kind of parasite in the fjord leaving small red marks on you.... euh! anyways.... last night there was thunder and for some reason in the state of mind between awakeness and sleep i was soooo sure that they were planes carrying bombs! I dont know why do... and i dont think i thought that they were gonna bomb us but i remember being sad and scared... probably because its such a horrible world we're living in.... israel bombed un observers yesterday..... isnt that funny....and then lebanon AND hizbollah has reportedly now waved their white flag... israels response? : if we continue for a few more weeks we'll probably go out of this fight as winners.... no hidden agenda there.....

thoughts of today

well lets see...... im starting to settle in at work and i dont feel so incompetent any longer... which is a nice feeling hehe.... further more there is this pakistani man working there too and he just proves my belief of pakistanis being a humble and kind people, im sure there are many fundamentalist idiots there as well but ive been very lucky and so far only met nice pakis.... i like them....
haha and then theres this other boy working who's all the way from the north called lofoten and he's so cute.... he has this totally up north dialect and he is so cute... if he wasnt so much bugger then me i would hug him... boyish.... and he spent a long time explaining to us the big buisness of fishing industry and the different types of fish, when to catch it, how to cook it..... hehe

and then this evening we went and swam in the fjord... and ive discovered ive watched waaaay too many horror movies cause i kept seeing somethign which would come up and swallow me... very creepy, i also realised that when it comes to bathing im a bit of a fachist... nothigns better than home.. medeteranian to dirty to many jelly fishes ( the size of my head!) the fjord... ish sweet water- WHY WHY WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO BATH IN SWEET WATER?!?!?!? there's nothing which keeps you floating... anyways... a bit proud that i actually went in....

then the other day i thought of something... its probably only me who finds it fascinating (which btw is a very difficult word spelling wise...) so just feel free to skip to the next part
anyways... i was inside the world trade center 5 months before the 9/11, i was in pakistan 3 months before the eart quake, and i was in israel in kyriat shmona two hours before they started bombing the place... lets just say its gonna be interesting to see what happens in cambodia (which btw im still VERY sceptical of... haha esp with thea around me who is totally into it and very excited...)


oh yeah and then my final thought of the day is that im soooo tired of this world...
why is the us proclaiming their status as world police over and over again... and WHY is the rest of the world not disagreeing! i mean just look at the middle eastern conflict (or should i say war) the un demanded that action was to be taken and to condemn israels attackign of lebanon.... (or soemthign like that) but no the uis could not agree to that instead they needed a private meeting with israel to set up the terms and now they have given them permission to keep the war going for a week and then it must stop.... gaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!! why why why?? if they are against it then why not agree to the un's propasal... no because everythign has to be custom fit according to their plans and needs... they are just out looking to undermine the un so that they can get a greater control over world politics... what is wrong with thsi world... yeah i know i sound very naive... i just guess i whcih we could live in an utopia... why is there so much wrong... it just totally depresses me....


gaaah ill stop complaining... gonna go to sleep now, very tired... pfew im tired at ten thirty... how bout that... :P

btw i recommend tegan and saras new album and also snow patrols new album esp chasing cars...

tata

mentos better mentos fresher....

fresh goes better with mentos fresher for your liiiiiife, mentos the freshmaker!

apparently if you search for that on downloading programs then youll get porn... im saying this from experience..... and trust me porn wasnt really what i was looking for.... oh well

just watched a really cool movie called trans america, i highly recommened it!

I came to thinking of times at the college... esp all the times when ppl hid in my bed... it totally freaked me out every time but well to quote a very well known artist: those were the best days of my life.... hmm ya i miss them.... and you know what... curtains is a really cool thing i miss it... i think i will try to arrange somethign like it when i go to uni (whereever that now might be- oh i started my application :)) or even when i go to cambodia... (ill probably sleep with a mosquito net around me there anyways- which im btw already full of, mosquito bites that is)

right... well i ought to go to bed i suppose.... this morning i woke up with an arm next tio me which did not belong to me i thought in the state of mind between sleep and consciousness, then i realised it was my arm but with absolutly no feeling in it... and i got a bit scared when i realised that if i do anything with my arm now to damage it i will not feel it until afterwards... very creepy

alright lets hope ill sleep sensibly tonight at least... nighty night, dont let the bed bugs bite....

blessed are we

blessed are we who can enjoy the weekend and I worship the ground the person walked on who invented the weekend. Thank you... so far i have woken up not feeling my arm.... watched one episode of grey's anatomy, watched 2 fast 2 furious, gone to the store and bought vegetables, chatted with ayesha, and talked to thea... jup... great life :D:D:D:D and one more day then we're off to work again... I am however starting to get used to the routines by now so its not that bad anymore... I guess you get used to anything.... + I realised that the money is great so I guess I can suffer if nothing else so for that..... Well today I was planning on figuring out where to apply for college..... it went so and so... I AM TOO LAZY :D but thats okay.... I'll write more later when something has actually happened

Ciao bella!

what i have come to realize:

many things.....

1. I'm thinking i should start to carry a small notebook with me were i could write down all the small things i think of wanting to say but theres no one around to listen...

2. I have during these two days of work discovered that i really do not like working... which kinda makes me very pessimistic thinking that I will have no choice but to work for the next coming at least 40 years....

3. I feel very insecure when I start new things which often results in a feeling of incompetence which leads to a feeling of uttermost depression...
(btw i hope i will not turn in to any of the people at the nursery home when I'm their age!- Either they are cranky old ladies or ungrateful males who are too full of testosterone to appreciate when someone is offering to help.... :))

4. I have defined what missing is for me... it is:
having a hole inside you aching everyday, every minute something which constantly there until you learn to live with the pain of it until its no longer pain but just a normality (+ a little more which i will probably go in on a more detailed explanation (since i find it sooo fascinating) some other day when Thea is not waiting for me to finish up so we can watch a movie)

5. Grey's anatomy is totally addictive

6. the media is very biased (as always) in their documentation of the middle eastern conflict....

muah!

norway....

i have so far watched two movies about to start my third one, eaten alot of food (concluded that this willl be the summer when i ate-everywhere i go theres always food in front of me) and gone to get a norweigian security number... i also ended up in a music store picking up theas younger brother when this american walks in looking rather butch talking about how he knows fender... (the guy behind fender i assume) and lookign real hardcore until he takes up several different harmonicas.... lol... you never can tell what people are like :) ¨
then tomorrow at nine im schedule to start working at the old peoples home... actually a bit nervous but i guess its only natural... oh well. gfood luck to me :)

thats all for now.... tune in tomorrow for an all new episode of :P just kidding.... bubye

leaving the war zone

home again... after a really long trip... it took me about 24h to travel and out ofthose hours 4 of them were flying time and the rest waiting time... fun... oh well and i didnt eat for about 22 hours... anyways.. more important things... me and robbie had a really nice time with danna.. just relaxing and spending nice quality time with her... saying good bye is always hard and well i kinda wish i could have stayed down there... actually i wish it alot... especially with the situation down there right now... even though i wouldnt have been able to make a difference it still feels safer being down there keeping an eye on my friends than having to see on the news what happens... i just wish i could have dstayed... ( LETS HOPE I CAN GO DOWN THERE NEXT SUMMER) hmm so airport in tel aviv was again aweful... first again... just to point out the fact that we are in israel... at most airport when they say : this is a security announcement, it follows with : please make sure not to leave your belongings unattended, well in israel they say :) : this is a security announcement, it is not allowed to carry any weapons at any of the terminals... hehe right so thats israel there are guns every where and speaking of guns when in budapest airport all of a sudden i see these big grown people in camouflage clothes walking by and i see a patch saying us. army... and i swear they just keep coming.. must have been about 2-300 of them.. most confusing and i just thought when did we end up in such a warzone... terrifying right... apparently thier flight broke down on their way to Iraq... hmm back to israel... check in took about two hours this time as well and i was escorted the whole tiem and all i could think of was i really dont understabd how they can think of me as a suspect :P
well tomorrow im off to norway to meet thea... and my life keeps on spinning... but i really really liked israel :)

shalom y'all

alright so lets see.... jerusalem was cool... no dead sea didnt happen... unfortunatly but oh well maybe next time ill come here .... heheh so we just had a day of touring tel aviv which was nice and we saw the funniest tshirt ever which said: shalom y'all.... haha weve been crackin up constantly for two days now... so anyways then this morning we jumped on the bus back to tel aviv (i know a lot of going back and foirth on the bus... hehe :)) and while on the bus... heavy sleeping going on... heyley phoines us and says that they are bombing in the north and that everyone is ordered to the bombshelter.... perfect timing right hehehey! so yeah... it looks like ium going home just in time for a pretty rough time here in israel... today i spent the day with danna and robbie and OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD! the coast is HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ive never been so hot in my life i was even tooo hot to even be bothered to go into the sea.... .and then tonight we are either spending time with dannas friends or if they are in the army we'll have a girlie night :) needless to say im really enjoying my stay and im sad to go....
hmm but yeah.. just thinking of all those young people in the arm,y out there right now fighting for israel (theyre my age or even younger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) it makes me sad and it definatly makes me feel weird......... its sad aint it.... think about it.... it said in the news paper that soldiers were killed today... those soldiers were most likely my age and would have been in the same school year as i if we would have had the same lives.... its a sad world....

untiol next tiume... shalom y'all..... hahahahahhahahahahahahahaha

sightseeing or so

so early early this morning we woke up to take a bus to tel aviv, this after 2 hours of sleep since we went around saying good bye to all the people ive met so far.... and you know even though im starting to get used to this whole leaving and saying good bye situation it still hurts..... theyre all such sweet hearts! :) so needless to say ive been a bit tired today.... well we checked in at the hostel and before heading back to the bus station i faced another event testing my personal space .....hehe today for the first time (ever i think ) i went to the toilet with a boy.... well it was actually like this: we both needed to go to the toilet and the toilets available were together with just a wall between them so there we were sitting talking while doing our 'buisness' yup.... i must say im quite proud i managed :P:P:P alright so after that we took the bus down to jerusalem and i AGAIN did something which i have not done before... i took a toursit bus:P we took a toursit bus around jerusalem and saw the seights however nothing from the old city so im going donw there again tomorrow to see the old city and then tonight were just looking at tel aviv... :)

thats all for now... oh right just one more thing!!!! i found the funniest thing! at the bus station there was a like 1 dollar shop and in there i found a trucker cap saying 100% svensk

yeah! i just had to have it! i mean who finds somethign like that in israel!????

bubye

its been a while....

so i have a lot of catching up to do....

hmm lets see..... tuesday eve we went to the pool hall and i offically can not play pool... then wedensday i dont really remember what we did during the day but in the evening we went to a kibbutz and the pool there (mamma kibbutzer ar inte alls som du har beskrivit dem, mycket mindre socialistiska nu pa 2000 talet) - and i discovered that its freakin hard to swim in sweet water hehe....

right then thursday we first went to an old monestary called tabkha or smth like that and it was were jesus performed the miracle of feeding ppl with two fishes and five breads or smth like that... and it was REALLY pretty! its on top of a hill over looking the sea of galliele (dunno how to spell) and yeah i could definatly imagine the serenity you get from living there all year around and with nothing to do then pray and get in contact with god.... then
in the evening robbies older brother lenny and his friend valerie took us to the highest point of kyriat shmona so we were over looking the city and man! i really really like lookign down on cities seeing all the lights and it just looks sooooooo pretty! i really liked it!

then yesterday (friday)
we went to the river again.... (i was gonna bring a bottle with me so i could take some of the holy water with me home but i forgot :)) and in the evening me and robbie went for a two hour long walk... very nice and we just talked about random stuff and well i got a close indepth presentation of how israelis look at one of our times worst conflicts.... (flat mamma jag vet att jag lovade att inte diskutera politik men i mitt forsvar sa diskuterade jag inte utan meerly fragade efter hans asikt) robbie told me about what he thought of the whole conflict between israelis and palestinians and i must say with sadness in my voice that it creeped me out and im not sure i see a future for this country.... meeting all these ppl and knowing that their opinion is probably ten times less open minded and reasoonable than the one which was presented to me makes me see little future for this country... i really do not think that they will ever learn to get along.... its just to much which they have no understanding for between eachother... sad..... anyways

saturday... today we spent the entire day by the pool the ppl i meet try to speak english but give up after a short while (funny enough though is that i dont feel shut out or alone in spite of this :))
AND i managed to have an entire conversation in hebrew with and 8 year old (well i think he's actually 11 (and he smokes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!- like everyone here) but he looks like hes 8 :)) i lent him sunscreen and it went something like :
boy: am i white anywhere?
me taking some of his chin: no
him stroking it out once more: okay?
me: yeah okay

hehey! :D all that in hebrew! im actually very impressed!

right so now im gonna go shower then eat dinner. dont know what im doing tonight but tomorrow early early morning were going to tel aviv and from there to jerusalem so i dont think ill be able to write for a week but ill try to remember as much as possible and report back later... the plan is sunday jerusalem going back to tel aviv to sleep monday jerusalem again sleeping in tel aviv tuesday dead sea and then either meeting danna wednesday-thursday or going back here to kyriat shmona... it all depends on wether or not i can get in contact with danna gaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!

oh well this was one of those massive long posts again but hey its not em who has to read it :D:D:D:D:D:D

shalom!

my new bikini !

right, so yesterday we didnt really do too much, woke up late and then at around 3.30 we took the car and drove up to the lebanese border, (so ive seen both lebanon and syria- not entered however :))and we ended the day with a bbq with robbies friend and his friends little sister- a very cute girl with a very cute name, evital. isnt it pretty :) then today me and hayley went to the store and bought a really pretty bikini- i like it alot... and what else yeah tonight we might go evening swimming and i just had a big lunch with lenny and his friend valerie (who is a boy even though its a girls name) very funny, typical boys talk,...hehe and typical boys lunch they ate a lot! and hot dogs and french fries.....yup yup so thats most of it so far...my bikini is really pretty and im slowly working on a tan... :) im happy and enjoying myself...(hehe except that hayley just reminded me that our results are coming out tomorrow- which id totally forgotten about so now ill spend all of tonight and tomorrow thinking of how i did....but i DO NOT want to know...aaargh! lol) anyways....

cherrio

and

and i just realised that i write way too long posts......

when ulrika met itay

so yesterday i went to netania to meet up with itay for a day who had the day off from the military.... and to all of you who knows him he sends his regards.... i took the bus alone there and while waiting at the busstation for him to come and pick me up this guy drives buy on his motorbike and stops then he comes up to me and starts to talk to me in hebrew and of course i have no idea what hes sayign and when he figures this out he quickly switches to engliwsh and asks me if i want him to take me to some parties in tel aviv, i nicely but firmly say no thanks...alright alright but what if he can drive me to this friend im going to meet.. no thanks i say again im waiting for hi rigth here.... and then the chat goes on a bit liek thsi and since i dont want to sound rude i just mostly stand there and decline his offers and then he asks if im afraid of him and assures me that if ill let him drive me there wobnt be any sex or anything hes not interested in that....yadayadayada.....jackidijackidijack...... alright he says well i can tell you dont want me here so lets say liek this... if you show me your boobs for one minute ill leave... bubye i say and walk away....so thats israel :) anyways i wasnt too surprised but its so funny to knwo that these types of guy exists EVERYWHERE!
the evening with itay was fine, however he seemed a bit uncomfortable with me there but it might have just been my imagination. we went to the beach ive now been by the medetaranian (no idea how to spell it) and the size of the jellyfishes there were about the same size as my head so no swiming just dipping my feet.... watched the sunset then went for dinner while watchign the football game i cant believe brasil lost (me and about 9million israelis:))!!! after that home to his place (a mansion) watching tv until i fell asleep and then wake up really early the mornign after to take first the train then the bus back here to kiryat shmona - loads of ppl from the military on there way back to there bases which meant many uniforms and MANY WEAPONS(never ssen so many weapons at one place before- and one cant hep to wonder what would happen if one of them goes of accidentally.....ouch!) hehe but you can tell that you are in the military land :P we drove past a shop or smth and the sign had symbols crossed over saying
no dogs
no walking barefoot
no arms
hehe anyways after that robbie took me to the local river here where we swam and i really enjoyed it! the water was sweet water (and aparently it supposed to be holy water since it was in this river jesus was babtised..) and at places it went up to your ancles to just a step away going up to your chest.... and the current (do you say current in rivers?) was REALLY strong. hehe you could sit on the shallow places and just feel yourself floating along and it took strength keeping at the same place.
im actually quite proud so far i havent managed to burn myself (thanks to my sunblock spf 30) however my face does feel a bit dry today... im actually enjoying robbies friends more and more theyre all really sweet and hehe you kinda forget that their 15 (or rather i forget taht im 19) now we're gonna eat dinner (hopefully falafel) and then we're going to a pool hall where one of robbies friends promised to teach me how to play. (kommer ni ihag det mamma och petra nar vi akte till cypern att dar var en kille i min alder som larde mig ? vi far se om jag minns natt:))
so until next time..... bubye.... (id like to say smth in hebrew but theres nothing suitable- the words ive learnt so far are mostly bad words :))

todha and bye kapara (thanks and bye sweetheart)